"Depression is the grand imposter -- posing as all powerful. It can be defeated, every time, if you or the person you care about confronts it like the grand imposter that it is."
I read the quote above in an article today, and it stuck with me. So brief, but so much truth. To many, depression is just "a case of the downers", or "a mood" that someone can just snap out of. Just stop worrying all of the time, they tell you. Try to focus on the positive, they say. And all that you want to do is scream at the top of your lungs "Do you really think I WANT to feel this way?!?!?". It's not about snapping out of it, or getting in a better mood. It's a chemical imbalance in the person's body that causes them to, in various ways, lose touch with reality. The extremes vary.
I started my own battle with depression years ago. I have never really been ashamed of it, because it is out of my control. But what I can control is making sure I get the help I need. Whether it is medication, counselling, a combination of both, or something else - there is help out there for you if you need it. Don't wait. Don't put it off another day. You are not alone. There are other people who can relate to how you are feeling. Possibly your friend or neighbor, coworker or teammate. Maybe your pastor. Or your classmate. Or that celebrity you have watched for years on television and in movies. Depression does not discriminate. It impacts people from all walks of life. But we need to fight. Don't try to do it alone. It doesn't work. Get help. Talk to someone. Call a hotline. Whatever you need to do. Just do it now. There is nothing wrong with you. It's not your fault. And yes, people would miss you if you weren't around any longer. I would miss you.
Don't stop fighting. No matter what.